Quitting an addiction is not too hard, I’ve quit many things many times, but the difficulty is in not relapsing and going back to the addiction. I should be in a 12-stop recovery program or in rehab if I truly want to quit or else the underlying reasons for the addiction are still there. Well right now rehab isn’t feasible so I’m attempting to do the Celebrate Recovery program on my own. Being addicted will make you miserable. Having a substance control your life is a terrible way to live. I’ve been addicted to stuff nearly all my life. That’s a life of bondage. I wish it on no one.

I feel like Paul who said this: “So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!” Romans 7: 21-25 (emphasis mine). My hope is in that last verse–that it will be God who “delivers me” from this.