Sometimes you’ve just got to accept what is, no matter how mess up it is. I’ve already been to my “garden of Gethsemene”, so I’m as ready as I’ll ever be. I could probably limit the damage to myself by not doing anything, but no one is making me do this. Not that I’m one to always obey quickly, but I’m being led by this verse:
Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. John 15:3
And one day it will pay off, if not in this life then the next.